Did I Ask For Your Opinion?

  Lately I have been having a bit of an existential crisis. Why am I here? Specifically at this junction of my life. My youngest will be turning 18 in the fall. So theoretically I am soon to be an empty nester. Realistically I will not be there any time soon. If ever. Although we are in the home stretch with High School. And from there a little more flexibility. Why have I not figured out what I am going to be when I grow up? Which brings me to what. What am I going to do? Who am I? Besides a daughter, wife, mother, friend. Where am I going? Lately with all that has been coming up from my past, maybe I need to figure out where I have been. When will I ever get my shit together? And how? I have said numerous times before that I can't tell (write) my story until my parents are dead because telling my story would involve them, and not always in a favorable light. And when I had said that it was before my dad had come back into my life after a long hiatus. Before I knew some of the det...

 I was invited to a neighbor friend's Disaster Cocktail Hour last night. There were five of us altogether, we were missing three. One was at a concert in Burlington with her family. One was in Mass. attending her mother's birthday party. And the third one?? I'm not really sure as she has mostly been MIA over the past couple of years. Because people drift sometimes. Of the five of us that were in attendance, three of us live on this side of the river, one of us lives on the other side of the river, and one of us lives up on the hill. And we all had a different tale to tell about the flood on Monday. This is the view I had sitting in my husband's truck in the pouring rain watching the street get torn to pieces by the river cresting its banks. We were hoping to get a sump pump to our neighbor's and friend's just on the other side of the raging water. Needless to say, it didn't happen. This yellow building used to be a restaurant where I worked. Looking in the o...